just needed a cry when i got home. i hate this feeling. this feeling of loss, of confusion. hate this.

Retail Therapy

Been spending quite a bit lately.. New hairstyle, new "face", new bag, new clothes, new... Haiz..

But then, quite happy leh. Though it helped get rid of those unhappy thoughts for a while. Like, a really short while :/ but yea, good way of releasing stress! Though I should learn to find solace in cheaper stuff.. Like pens.. Or cheap accessories... Hahaha.

Argghhhh :/

Totally procrastinating on my work.. Really sorry towards my group mates but seriously, I really no mood and no heart to do work!

So much frustrations! No idea why people (including me) often say things without thinking, do things without thinking.. Etc etc.

Ah really, sometimes I just wanna say F*** it!

The Drink

Sometimes I really wonder why people want to make themselves drink intentionally.. To say that you want to forget your woes and drown your sorrows.. Well.. By drinking alcohol, you're making yourself mentally weaker.. Allowing yourself to be more vulnerable to your troubles.. That's so contradictory... When all you wanted to do was forget but what you're doing is akin to forcing yourself to remember?

Drink for the right reasons.. To me, drinking is for celebrating.. Drinking to celebrate a birth, a life well lived, drinking to love, hell, even drinking to drinking! But yea, there's always a good reason to drink as long as it's not gonna cause more pain.

Drink, to life.