Seriously, this saying has taken on a whole new meaning. Watching "we bought a zoo", the determination and perseverance of a parent to his kids, to life... It's huge really.
What decisions you make in that 20 seconds affect not just one, but perhaps many. Human beings, or otherwise. Stick to your decisions? Or let go? How do you decide? For yourself or for others? For self-preservation or for self-appreciation?
I'll never forget two statements in my various alma maters.
(SN)
溫文爾雅 高貴大方 謙恭有禮
入得了廚房 出得了廳堂
(JJ)
Self-Discipline, Self-Respect,
Self-Achievement, Self-Motivation
Can I? I hope I've achieved some of those.. And the rest, I believe I can do it!
Monday, December 26, 2011
Thursday, December 22, 2011
King's Cross Station
Was re-watching Harry Potter yesterday.. the eighth one.. and this conversation, once again, struck some thoughts in my mind...
“I’ve got a choice?”
“Oh yes,” Dumbledore smiled at him. “We are in King’s Cross you say? I think that if you decided not to go back, you would be able to . . . let’s say . . . board a train.”
“And where would it take me?”
“On,” said Dumbledore simply.
This conversation took place in Harry's brain, and it was real. Ok, random. But yes, I'm now at my own King's Cross Station. Standing on the platform, deliberating whether to board the next train or not. Do I want to? I should. Many have told me that I should board the train, move on, and live my life. All along I've always heard others telling others to "Live Life To The Fullest". How the hell in the world do you know whether you've lived life to the fullest?! Who's going to be the judge for that statement? Your parents, siblings, relatives, friends, neighbours, strangers, or you yourself?
All my life, I've always lived on others' advices. We advice you to...., I think you should..., In my opinion you..... etc etc. Thinking back, was what I did actually what I wanted. Or was it what I had to do. Not necessarily the right thing. But just something others said I had to do. Whether I knew my work or not, whether I was smart or stupid, whether I was hard-working or lazy, whether I used my brain or not, it was always someone else telling me. I never once paused to think "Was I really like that???" I think, I let others define me. Not once did I define myself. Descriptive words and phrases were always used to describe others. However, how often does one actually sit down and reflect, thinking about what they did, say, think for that day? Not often. In fact, living in the city has caused people to think less. Stress allowed city dwellers to claim that they're too tired to think! Whereas those living in the suburbs will not need to think and reflect so much. Life's kinda pretty standard there I guess. And if you can afford to live in the suburbs, you're probably pretty much self-sustainable no?
So if I don't listen to others this time, and listen to my heart and brain debating, which should I choose? To board, or to stay? Like what Dumbledore (or Rowlings) say, the train just takes you "on". No one really knows where the train will take you. To a specific destination, maybe. But that's probably all right? No one will know exactly what kind of experiences you'll get. The train ride, or the destination or both, can change your life. Perhaps, only the great lord can give some answers. And then again, every decision that you make changes the course of your life! Fate is unpredictable because not everything is set in stone until it has happened. So, life is after all just a gamble. Just something that will allow us to ride the ups and downs, learning and learning.
Final question though, board or don't board? Time is running out already.
“I’ve got a choice?”
“Oh yes,” Dumbledore smiled at him. “We are in King’s Cross you say? I think that if you decided not to go back, you would be able to . . . let’s say . . . board a train.”
“And where would it take me?”
“On,” said Dumbledore simply.
This conversation took place in Harry's brain, and it was real. Ok, random. But yes, I'm now at my own King's Cross Station. Standing on the platform, deliberating whether to board the next train or not. Do I want to? I should. Many have told me that I should board the train, move on, and live my life. All along I've always heard others telling others to "Live Life To The Fullest". How the hell in the world do you know whether you've lived life to the fullest?! Who's going to be the judge for that statement? Your parents, siblings, relatives, friends, neighbours, strangers, or you yourself?
All my life, I've always lived on others' advices. We advice you to...., I think you should..., In my opinion you..... etc etc. Thinking back, was what I did actually what I wanted. Or was it what I had to do. Not necessarily the right thing. But just something others said I had to do. Whether I knew my work or not, whether I was smart or stupid, whether I was hard-working or lazy, whether I used my brain or not, it was always someone else telling me. I never once paused to think "Was I really like that???" I think, I let others define me. Not once did I define myself. Descriptive words and phrases were always used to describe others. However, how often does one actually sit down and reflect, thinking about what they did, say, think for that day? Not often. In fact, living in the city has caused people to think less. Stress allowed city dwellers to claim that they're too tired to think! Whereas those living in the suburbs will not need to think and reflect so much. Life's kinda pretty standard there I guess. And if you can afford to live in the suburbs, you're probably pretty much self-sustainable no?
So if I don't listen to others this time, and listen to my heart and brain debating, which should I choose? To board, or to stay? Like what Dumbledore (or Rowlings) say, the train just takes you "on". No one really knows where the train will take you. To a specific destination, maybe. But that's probably all right? No one will know exactly what kind of experiences you'll get. The train ride, or the destination or both, can change your life. Perhaps, only the great lord can give some answers. And then again, every decision that you make changes the course of your life! Fate is unpredictable because not everything is set in stone until it has happened. So, life is after all just a gamble. Just something that will allow us to ride the ups and downs, learning and learning.
Final question though, board or don't board? Time is running out already.
Moving Onnnnnnnn...
Already Gone - Kelly Clarkson
Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
Even with our fists held high
It never would've worked out right
We were never meant for do or die
I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hold you, now I can't stop
I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone
Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you want to cry
Started with a perfect kiss then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so, I love you enough to let you go
I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone
I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on so I'm already gone
Already gone, already gone, already gone
Already gone, already gone, already gone, yeah
Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone
I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on so I'm already gone
Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
Even with our fists held high
It never would've worked out right
We were never meant for do or die
I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hold you, now I can't stop
I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone
Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you want to cry
Started with a perfect kiss then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so, I love you enough to let you go
I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone
I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on so I'm already gone
Already gone, already gone, already gone
Already gone, already gone, already gone, yeah
Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone
I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on so I'm already gone
Friday, December 16, 2011
“Life can only be understood backwards; but it must be lived forwards." - Soren Kierkegaard
saw this quote on my cousin's wall and thought it was a damn great quote worth thinking about. how often can we actually understand this and know what to do.
Went out with Tommy and Egoh yesterday. Havent seen Tommy in the longest time!!!! miss him so much! and I had such fun laughing and talking with them. I think we disturbed quite a few patrons in TCC :p
Tommy Lai!!!!
Egoh added sugar to the one on the left, and Tommy said it looked like the snowball thingy -.-
my drink: Sensuale
Till we meet again....
Oh! We wanted to go see the A&F hotties but unfortunately, they weren't there anymore.... ://// but A&F opened! maybe they were inside.. lol!
saw this quote on my cousin's wall and thought it was a damn great quote worth thinking about. how often can we actually understand this and know what to do.
Went out with Tommy and Egoh yesterday. Havent seen Tommy in the longest time!!!! miss him so much! and I had such fun laughing and talking with them. I think we disturbed quite a few patrons in TCC :p
Oh! We wanted to go see the A&F hotties but unfortunately, they weren't there anymore.... ://// but A&F opened! maybe they were inside.. lol!
Wednesday, December 14, 2011
the smell of freedom....
我自由了!即便是短短的两个礼拜,但还是-自由!
Paper was tough... wrote until i really had nothing to write, gave up writing and just went out of the room... things that i studied and forgot, too bad :/ but the rest, ok la. hopefully can pass lo. hopefully. haiz.
ok, though things are already over but still, busy busy busy like a bee!
dear friends, long time no see! here i come sweethearts! <3<3<3
Paper was tough... wrote until i really had nothing to write, gave up writing and just went out of the room... things that i studied and forgot, too bad :/ but the rest, ok la. hopefully can pass lo. hopefully. haiz.
ok, though things are already over but still, busy busy busy like a bee!
dear friends, long time no see! here i come sweethearts! <3<3<3
Updates!
today is the last paper!!! first time ever im blogging early in the morning and a few hours before a paper... well... usually i have something better to do that's why hahaha.
yupps!
updates on the previous time check!
14/12 ACFI2005 Finance & Steamboat at twins dajie house!
15/12 Meet up with Tommy!!!
17/12 Dinner with KWZ & Aik's performance
20/12 Gathering with Uni class for CHRISTMAS~
22/12 08S31 & 08S32 Lunch/Dinner (I will probably die that day.. hahahaha!)
25/12 We'll be strolling down Orchard admiring the lights, slowly making our way to Haagen-Dazs :p
and in January, omg yes! CNY!!! and Egoh's birthday :p:p:p CAN'T WAIT!
but meanwhile, of course, back to reality, FOCUS JANICE FOCUS! ACFI2005 Finance, YOUR LAST PAPER! get your groove on and rock this last paper like you'll ace it (though i know i won't lol)!
there may be lotsa photos coming up (i hope!).. i wanna cam-whore with all the catch-ups with friends and girlfriends! pity some of them are not in town... Bella Ow and JanLee, you're sorely and dearly MISSED!! <3
yupps!
updates on the previous time check!
14/12 ACFI2005 Finance & Steamboat at twins dajie house!
15/12 Meet up with Tommy!!!
17/12 Dinner with KWZ & Aik's performance
20/12 Gathering with Uni class for CHRISTMAS~
22/12 08S31 & 08S32 Lunch/Dinner (I will probably die that day.. hahahaha!)
25/12 We'll be strolling down Orchard admiring the lights, slowly making our way to Haagen-Dazs :p
and in January, omg yes! CNY!!! and Egoh's birthday :p:p:p CAN'T WAIT!
but meanwhile, of course, back to reality, FOCUS JANICE FOCUS! ACFI2005 Finance, YOUR LAST PAPER! get your groove on and rock this last paper like you'll ace it (though i know i won't lol)!
there may be lotsa photos coming up (i hope!).. i wanna cam-whore with all the catch-ups with friends and girlfriends! pity some of them are not in town... Bella Ow and JanLee, you're sorely and dearly MISSED!! <3
Saturday, December 10, 2011
O-V-E-R
it's a little bit late to blog about but better late than never right?
well, that short relationship with him was good while it lasted. he gave me memories and experiences that I would never forget. Thank you for that (:
And it was kinda mutual, with us not being happy whether we were together or not cos we were both bounded to this "cos I'm attached I shouldn't be doing this" but oh wells, now that he's free of it, hopefully he can do whatever he enjoys without being bogged down..
Treat your next one better, that's what I told him. And I truly hope he does remember that. Cos it's not often that you'll come by a girl who's willing to condone his whims and still be able to tolerate it. Show some respect la huh (: Freedom comes with a price I guess :p
But yes, thanks again to those who stood by me and helped me through tough and heart-breaking moments and listened to me when I needed ears. They really helped me remain sane. Though, I guess, it is really one less person to talk to, though for the past few weeks he wasn't really around much for me to rant at. But really, I have experienced moments where I thought, "Omg, I really wanna tell him this!", that it hit me that I can't tell him that cos it's not appropriate and not something that he would appreciate anymore. But then again, I asked for it hehheh. So yupps, Janice Leong, no regrets ok! Like my mum and so many other people said, "A better one is somewhere ahead!" So yes, I gotta move on, and stay strong. VALEO!!!
well, that short relationship with him was good while it lasted. he gave me memories and experiences that I would never forget. Thank you for that (:
And it was kinda mutual, with us not being happy whether we were together or not cos we were both bounded to this "cos I'm attached I shouldn't be doing this" but oh wells, now that he's free of it, hopefully he can do whatever he enjoys without being bogged down..
Treat your next one better, that's what I told him. And I truly hope he does remember that. Cos it's not often that you'll come by a girl who's willing to condone his whims and still be able to tolerate it. Show some respect la huh (: Freedom comes with a price I guess :p
But yes, thanks again to those who stood by me and helped me through tough and heart-breaking moments and listened to me when I needed ears. They really helped me remain sane. Though, I guess, it is really one less person to talk to, though for the past few weeks he wasn't really around much for me to rant at. But really, I have experienced moments where I thought, "Omg, I really wanna tell him this!", that it hit me that I can't tell him that cos it's not appropriate and not something that he would appreciate anymore. But then again, I asked for it hehheh. So yupps, Janice Leong, no regrets ok! Like my mum and so many other people said, "A better one is somewhere ahead!" So yes, I gotta move on, and stay strong. VALEO!!!
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