simply stopped studying tour even though im not done studying yet. seriously cannot take it. just the amount of information is overwhelming. I. CAN'T. BREATHE.
entertaining thoughts that should not be in my head. not all of them good. therefore, THEY SHOULD NOT BE IN MY HEAD. but yea, they're there :/ i dont want!!!! out out out get out!!! now!
really, im losing control of myself. saying things that shouldnt be said. more often than not, doing things that shouldnt be done. and of cos, thinking of things that shouldnt be thought of. especially at this time! EXAMS YO!! but here i am, blogging, and thinking and not concentrating...
and im being mean and cruel not only to myself, but also the people around me. not just friends and family, but to strangers even! gosh. im so twisted. i think it's stress. but then again, what stress? im not even mugging my ass off. im just. mugging. ok and that's putting it loosely ok. mugging. i think if people see how i mug, they'll scoff and say "you call this mugging?! i did this like way back then!"
:/ disappointed with myself. and i think that im on the brink of that again. what i experienced before A's. except now, i dont have burp, egoh or lizhong to pull me out. im just sinking. lower and lower and lower. again.
i wonder how im gonna get out this time.
